Mostly write, sometimes dance and occasionally drink.
In fact a mature person does not fall in love, he rises in love. The word ’fall’ is not right. Only immature people fall; they stumble and fall down in love. Somehow they were managing and standing. They cannot manage and they cannot stand – they find a woman and they are gone, they find a man and they are gone. They were always ready to fall on the ground and to creep. They don’t have the backbone, the spine; they don’t have that integrity to stand alone.
A mature person has the integrity to be alone. And when a mature person gives love, he gives without any strings attached to it: he simply gives. And when a mature person gives love, he feels grateful that you have accepted his love, not vice versa. He does not expect you to be thankful for it – no, not at all, he does not even need your thanks. He thanks you for accepting his love. And when two mature persons are in love, one of the greatest paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone; they are together so much so that they are almost one. But their oneness does not destroy their individuality, in fact, it enhances it: they become more individual.
Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free. There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate. How can you dominate the person you love? Just think over it. Domination is a sort of hatred, anger, enmity. How can you think of dominating a person you love? You would love to see the person totally free, independent; you will give him more individuality. That’s why I call it the greatest paradox: they are together so much so that they are almost one, but still in that oneness they are individuals. Their individualities are not effaced – they have become more enhanced. The other has enriched them as far as their freedom is concerned.
Immature people falling in love destroy each other’s freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness.
In between dating and trying to figure out what I want, I’ve been occasionally spending “time” with someone I’ve know for awhile. Nothing serious will ever come out of it and with each passing day I grow less patient with him. If he’s not always judging what I wear or making me feel like I have an ego for being confident in who I am, he’s telling me about all these young chicks he’s “talking” to. It’s pretty annoying in a completely non-jealous way. I’ve never knew anyone so self absorbed and completely unaware of how his comments are hurtful. There is a reason why 22 year olds find you attractive and that’s because they don’t question anything you say. They don’t challenge you and once someone does you perceive them to be bitchy which he’s called me a few times. In all seriousness, I’m so done with you. I’m over it. I’m not even mad at you, I’m mad I put up with it for so long. (Another vent)@1 week ago with 2 notes
The closer I get to 30 the bigger my hips gets. It’s like my body is saying “well you didn’t pop any babies yet but here is an extra 10 pounds to your ass. Enjoy!”@1 week ago with 1 note