I don’t want this to be a very long post because too much has happened in the last few days to even put on a post but I’m making a few changes on a personal level. Changes I can’t even express with words but it’s a long time coming. The next change is that I won’t be posting much on here anymore. I’ve decided to focus on my fiction and this is no longer the appropriate platform to do so. I don’t even remember the last time I posted anything original on here. I’m currently working on my own website and will be up and running by next week. I do plan on sending the link to those I know will be interested in reading because I’ve met many on here who share a similar passion. I’ve spent a lot of countless years focusing on shit. I have so much to say and share with the world and I’m determined to finally put myself out there. Not only recent events snapped me into place but a stern letter from a publishing company I’ve been working with for the last year put things in perspective.
"You have a strong voice but you lack focus. We need to see more from you in the next few months."
And more they will see.
@1 month ago with 8 notes
#personal #changes #long time coming
This year I’m not looking for love. This year I’m looking to make my dreams come true.
@1 month ago with 5 notes
This past weekend was a weird one. Friday night ended in a way I expected it to. I was not feeling like myself and I got into another pointless argument with my ex. Drinking in such a confused state of mind will always end in more questions than answers. That’s a lesson for anyone reading this.
I spent most of Saturday afternoon talking to my best friend about how I’ve been feeling. She gave me some sage advice and said a few things I didn’t want to hear.
1. Cut off the ex immediately (done)
2. Stop thinking and go with the flow (working on it)
3. Trust you gut (getting there)
4. Stop letting the past define you (my biggest problem)
I ended up going out Saturday night with my best friend and her husband’s close group of friends. It was probably the best night I’ve had in a long time. There was no drama. No guys in my face and endless dancing with my best friend. I was so happy I went out. It made me realize that in spite of everything that’s happen, I like where I’m heading and I need to keep moving forward.
My ex is an ex for a reason. Him and I can’t be friends. It’s okay to be single. I’m having more fun getting to know myself again. I have Dominican Republic in June and hopefully Vegas in August.
I have shit to look forward to. I pray that this is the last pep talk I have to give myself.
@1 month ago with 4 notes
#personal #life #me
"I’m three minutes into Looking and, look, I’ll sit through the whole thing but I’m sort of tired of this type of tv show. I don’t want to see good looking people have fun lives without any real worries. I want to see normal people navigate friendships with people they never see because of annoying mind games. I want to see people not doing things because too many bills came at once. I want to see people not going places because even though everybody says they’re all body positive they still look at strangers like complete assholes if they don’t meet their exacting standards and they won’t feel comfortable because they know they aren’t pretty enough or wearing expensive enough looking clothing. I want to see people blowing off plans that nobody wanted to follow through on anyway because they have $7 left till Wednesday and it’s just easier and cheaper to throw one of those old frozen dory fillets they have at the back of their freezer into the oven and watch the Pegasus episodes of Battlestar Galactica in underpants and a singlet. I only want to see good looking people in a tv show if they’re in space, or getting eaten by zombies, or are planning political schemes. Good looking people having “normal” lives is boring. Normal lives that include never tweaking your elbow from scrubbing toothpaste bits off the bathroom mirror. Where friends just “drop by” and it’s okay and lots of fun and never a rigmarole of coordinating dates and times and chopping and changing and thinking up ways to make the place seem less inviting so they get out sooner because you have too much laundry to do before tomorrow because you’re not happy with the date and time you finally settled on."
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Lupita Nyong’o on her perparation for the whipping scene for 12 Years a Slave.
Oh my lord why isn’t she talked about more. I love her. Tired of hearing about these wack ass actresses as opposed to this gem. This is so powerful. And the fact she felt so empathetic and understand as a black woman how bad it was. Ugh.
That was sad yet so beautiful. Lupita understands how powerful movies can be when they portray real struggles.
She is literally just fucking perfect.
She needs to win an Oscar for her role
@1 month ago with 33 notes
Is it okay I still would have been with Clive Owen’s character in the end?That Danny was such a wimp, no way.
Had a conversation a few weeks back about this scene and I related the most to Portmans character but this line kills me. I can be this brutal to people. Not sure if it’s a good thing at times